Stunned

It was one of those days that i made poor decisions. I wouldn't regret the decisions i made that day for, afterall i did enjoy myself.

I visited a friend of mine quite late in the night. And therefore, left late enough that public transport had ceased.We took a taxi back home and being the last person to get down i had to pay for the taxi fare. For some reason the machine wouldn't accept my Atm card and thus i had no ways of paying the taxi fare other than call one of my friends for money.

Not many people are awake at 4am in the morning. So, i called each and every known person in my residence hoping that someone will pick up their phone. It was then that I realised i couldnt find the name of a certain someone in my phone directory. So, while the taxi guy was waiting I was definitely shocked that my ex's name was missing in the contacts.

I couldnt remember the day I had deleted it. Even worse was that i never realised it was missing for days. For a moment or two i sat there (still in the taxi) staring at the phone. However, the taxi man was getting quite annoyed and my automatic nervous system didnt fail me as i dialed his number like i was dialing my atm pin number.
(I tend to have this sudden loss of memory when i try to recall my pin numbers but at the cash withdrawing machine, the numbers key in perfectly like an automatic response)
Anyways, ultimately it was another friend of mine who came for rescue as no one was reachable.

Its then that i couldnt help thinking do all relationships end up easily forgotten? I know i loved him very much when we were in the relationship and due to unavoidable circumstances things had to end. Even when it did i had a tough time moving on. But the stunning part was how was i able to forget him completely that he is not even in my chat list. I would speak to him, msg him or chat to him almost everyday before and after we were together. My definition of moving on was to get over those special feelings for the certain someone but still be able to care. Though now it appears that I might have even forgotten that he existed in those couple of days.

I cant help but doubt love now. If it is so possible to forget (though i am glad, I do not want to end up single for the rest of my life!) then how do you believe in one's words that "I will love you and care for you for the rest of my life".
Don't you have to remember the person to love and care?

Maybe I am wrong. Maybe if you do love the person you wouldnt let things get in the way of keeping in touch and hence allow the possibility of forgetting the person. Anyways, I do believe in things happen for the best. So maybe I am really ready to move on...