An appropriate song

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

I think this is more an appropriate post than the one on irritation...

Irritation

Have you wondered how sometimes its easy to imagine a person doesn't exist rather than having to acknowledge the presence and make a casual conversation with that person.

When i analyze my feelings and emotions towards a certain person I feel it keeps fluctuating! No wonder its hard for men to understand women when I myself cant understand me.

One time I want to best friends and one time i just want to go on ignoring his mere existence! Its like an evil cycle :(

Truth is a part of me has always wanted to occupy some important space in his life or nothing at all. Not the equality that all others get but something more which certain few get like his close childhood friends. Its even more difficult to walk around in the name of a friend when you hardly know what's happening to the "friend". Shouldn't it be a batch mate or something?
Yet, certain others say "it's not worth it... its his loss and not mine".

It's always been either I am something or nothing. Why cant I be neutral?
Now the time has come to decide once and for all.

Let go...

Mirah- La familia

Hey friends don't you think you better cool it down
You're always gettin' curious and leavin' town
You know i like it being in your family
I wonder what would happen if nobody left
We'd all stick around if we'd all stick around

And here's a question that's been tested:
Tell me, if we sleep together
Would it make it any better?
If we sleep together
Would you be my friend forever?

If we sleep together
Would it make it any better?
If we sleep together
Would you be my friend?

Hey friend listen up their playing our song
On the radio, do you have to go?
I really like it, this rock and roll
Makes me want a little sugar in my bowl
It's like the glory days, it's like a fortune sold

And here's a question that's been tested:
Tell me, if we sleep together
Would it make it any better?
If we sleep together
Would you be my friend forever?

If we sleep together
Would it make it any better?
If we sleep together
Would you be my friend?

Let's none of us forget about who we are
So choose a path and follow it
Take a pill and swallow it
None of us forget about who we are
It's not forever we can fool around in the dark

If we sleep together
Would it make it any better?
If we sleep together
Would you be my friend forever?

If we sleep together
Would it make it any better?
If we sleep together
Would you be my friend forever?
Forever (x8)

I've been listening to this song for a while. But, I realised how much it suits my situation. Its sometimes amazing when you see how songs can connect to you.

A simple song has so many different meanings. Some meaning the thin line between friendship and sex, and some meaning of letting go. A comment I read randomly was about how the person doesn't want to let go and hopes if a physical connection is a good reason to stay back. Whichever the meaning is, sometimes its just too late to change things and then the friend(s) do let go and leave...

I guess this is what she is saying too when she says
"Hey friends don't you think you better cool it down
You're always gettin' curious and leavin' town"
"None of us forget about who we are"

Dedicated to YOU...