Have you wondered how sometimes its easy to imagine a person doesn't exist rather than having to acknowledge the presence and make a casual conversation with that person.
When i analyze my feelings and emotions towards a certain person I feel it keeps fluctuating! No wonder its hard for men to understand women when I myself cant understand me.
One time I want to best friends and one time i just want to go on ignoring his mere existence! Its like an evil cycle :(
Truth is a part of me has always wanted to occupy some important space in his life or nothing at all. Not the equality that all others get but something more which certain few get like his close childhood friends. Its even more difficult to walk around in the name of a friend when you hardly know what's happening to the "friend". Shouldn't it be a batch mate or something?
Yet, certain others say "it's not worth it... its his loss and not mine".
It's always been either I am something or nothing. Why cant I be neutral?
Now the time has come to decide once and for all.
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